A Baby Prayer

*Sneak peak. Praying there is more to come. I am starting to write a book about My Story.

Matthew 19:26 “Jesus looked at them intently and said,” Humanly speaking, it is impossible. But, with God everything is possible.”

In September 2019, my husband and I discovered that we were having a baby! It was such exciting news. I was quite early on in my pregnancy when I started having pain in my side. The pain was excruciating, so we decided to head into the E.R. At 5 weeks pregnant, I was so early. What was wrong with me? I wondered. The doctors ran tests and discovered that I had enlarged kidneys and a blockage in my ureter. But, they did not know why. The only test that could give me accurate results was an MRI. After waiting a week with this same pain, my results came back. I had massive fibroids that grew with the pregnancy. These fibroids caused the excruciating pain that blocked my urine from leaving my kidneys to the ureter. I was offered to have a stent inserted to relieve the pressure or a nephrostomy tube that drained the urine into a bag from my kidneys. I chose the nephrostomy tube because it was the least invasive. After having the tube inserted, I was relieved from the pain. I was then 6 weeks pregnant walking around with a tube attached to my kidney and a bag hanging. It was tricky teaching with a nephrostomy tube, being a preschool teacher. However, I managed. The joy of having my baby grow inside me was so special. At 8 weeks, my husband and I went to our first appointment. We witnessed a miracle! Our baby had a strong heartbeat. We were elated! I couldn’t stop looking at the precious picture of our baby.

Everyone could see that my stomach was getting larger, but it was not because of the baby. The fibroids just kept growing. I had no idea I even had them until our E.R. visit. I felt so heavy. I began to start worrying about the baby. I wondered if our baby would have enough room to grow. Yet, everyone seemed so positive. So, I tried to be as positive as I could be. I rehearsed bible verses over and over again. Yet, I still felt uneasy.

At my 11 weeks appointment, I met with the nurse practitioner first. We talked about the fibroids, and how she has seen many women deliver with them. My uneasiness grew a bit stronger despite her comforting words. As she attempted to look for the baby using an ultrasound, she had a difficulty because of the fibroids. She called in the doctor. She couldn’t find the baby. They had me wait to see the ultrasound technician. As I laid there, I knew that something was wrong. I just did not want to admit it. She looked, and looked, and looked. Finally, there was my baby. There was no more heartbeat. She whispered the words, “Aisha, I am so sorry.” No more life. My baby was gone. As I drove home, I just kept repeating the verse, Isaiah 41:10 “ Fear not, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” About five days later, I went into the hospital to have the baby removed. It was such a tough time for me. In the middle of this it was hard to see God’s goodness even though I knew he was there.

As time went on, my heart began to heal. We learned that our baby was a boy and that the fibroids caused the miscarriage. I named the baby Kai Lee Doggette. He was my precious boy.

However, the hopes of having a baby were not over. I was referred to an infertility specialist who was very knowledgeable about fibroids. My surgery was scheduled for March 6th. My surgery was a success! Ten fibroids were removed. Five were the size of grapefruits! One of the fibroids was in the shape of a heart. I think God had that one made for Kai.

Now, I am 5 weeks post op and doing very well! My surgeon said that everything looks great and that we can start trying for a baby again within the next few months. My husband and I are believing God for a baby. We are believing in his continual healing power that he will allow me to carry a baby full term without my fibroids growing back. This is our journey. It is not over, and it will never be. We always have the opportunity to trust in God. We just have to be willing to open our hands and say I surrender. With God, it is POSSIBLE for us to have a baby.

Heart shaped fibroid

Aisha and Austin Doggette